Finally, I chose to stay in solitude
Amidst the joyous celebration of the world
I seek to feel emptiness
And not to feel anything at all
I need to keep my sanity
Stronger than before, like it's always been
The uncontrollable thoughts that's been lurking
I need more time, count a thousand times more
So as not to feel regrets after
Wish I can just lie for hours
With you by my side
Be warmed and comforted in the safety of your arms
Yet, even these thoughts are not comforting
'Coz even though the heart longs so much for these
The mind contradicts and rationalize
Your smiles are not for me
Your arms warm and comfort someone else
Your lips are not mine to kiss
Your love is not mine alone
It's breaking my heart into pieces
Emptiness
I need to feel that emptiness
Renew strength to keep smiling, hoping
That tomorrow, it will be different
That I'll be the only one
And uncertainties all gone..
Or that I'll find the strength
To let go...
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