Choices

Life, as it is, is full of choices. When you told me you love me, I was thinking straight and laid out the choices for you; friendship or love. You chose love and so did I. We both know it will not be an easy road but we are hard-headed people. You've shown how you love me and so did I. Guess I've overdone it sometimes. In such a short time, there were individual choices that we disagreed on causing pain to both of us (or is it just for me?)

You know that, for me, a day is like a month without your presence. But this time, I am trying to ignore the feeling that I miss you so much and pretending it's a very long weekend. I did checked messages a hundred times but you made the choice not to send one or communicate with me. All I have to remind me of you are your texts and the memories of the times we're together.

You have your own reasons for ignoring me, I guess. Could it be your waiting for me to make the first move? Or, could it be that you've grown tired and given up on this messy and complicated relationship?

If that's the case then, like I've said before, I won't stop you from leaving. Maybe I anticipated our love won't last long when I read the signs so I took and use every opportunity to show how much I care and love you. That way, I don't have any regrets whatsoever if it ends as easily as it started. Did I read the signs incorrectly blinded with jealousy?

If it's waking up time from a dream then I do wish you happiness. I love you so much and I hope I left you memories to remember me by; material, new experiences, new emotions. Maybe, we'll see each other again in the future. Till then... (still hoping it will be sooner cause I would surely miss you )